The Healing Power of Kindness Study for Our Study Groups

The Healing Power of Kindness
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The Healing Power of Kindness

By Ken Wapnick

Our Next Study for Our Study Groups

Our next series will start April 7th and we will be doing a book discussion with the book by Ken Wapnick, “The Healing Power of Kindness: Volume 1: Releasing Judgment.” This is an excellent addition to our “Being Truly Helpful” theme for this year. We will only be studying Volume 1. It is available in print and on Kindle on Amazon. It is also available as an audiobook on

Description: The book from Ken Wapnick, “The Healing Power of Kindness, Pt. 1 – Releasing Judgments” is devoted to the kindness of healing, in hopes of reinforcing Jesus’ message of undoing separation. Kindness reflects our inherent oneness with each other, while attack drives us still further apart in our awareness. In reviewing the principles of sickness and healing and some common misapplications, the discussion in this book helps us undo the sources of unkindness, so that in all our interactions we would reflect the Source of kindness.

Weekly Study Group Focus:
  • Week 1: What thoughts arise when you look at the title’s words “The Healing Power of Kindness?” Read the Preface in study group and possibly begin “Section 1. The Kindness of Healing.”
  • Week 2: Discussion on group’s insights on “1. The Kindness of Healing” and “2. Judgment and the Belief in Differences: The Basis of Unkindness – How is Judgment Relinquished.”
  • Week 3: Discussion on group’s insights on section “Healing as the Undoing of Separation.”
  • Week 4: Discussion on group’s insights on “3. On Being a Teacher of Kindness.” Part 1 of discussion.
  • Week 5: Discussion on group’s insights on “3. On Being a Teacher of Kindness.” Part 2 of discussion.
  • Week 6: Conclusion with discussion on group’s insights on the Appendix.
How to Prepare and Read the Book:

Each day you will be reading from the book, “The Healing Power of Kindness. When you read, you will be doing more than just “reading.” I strongly encourage you to set aside the time to do so. Try not to read ahead. Take the reading as it is assigned.
Use the following format:
  • Prepare your space to read and journal. Be sure it is quiet. Make this a sacred time, light a candle or put on meditation music.
  • Before you begin reading, meditate for at least 5-10 minutes to clear your mind and so you may be open to the wisdom.
  • After meditation, open your journal and place the date and a 1-2 sentence intention to Holy Spirit.
  • Read a few paragraphs or a page. (Be sure to spread the reading out through the week, perhaps one page a day, etc). As you read, you may wish to jot down questions, make notes or observations.
  • Close the book. Take time to reflect on what you have read. As you journal, you may wish to reflect on how you could use what you are learning in your daily life. Or, what information in the reading made an impact. You may wish to refer to your ACIM book as well.
  • The essence of your daily journaling will be shared in our sharing in each week’s class. It is important that you are focusing on how to use the material in your life and not so much the reading was “nice”, “beautiful”, or “inspiring.” A Course in Miracles needs to be applied in every aspect of our lives to make an impact. Even 10 minutes of journaling can be powerful.
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Comparison is the Thin Edge of the Wedge

The ego is always aware of the threat to its existence, that threat being God, or more specifically, the mind’s decision to remember God and to choose Him. So if I go to God with what I’m feeling – my low self-worth, feeling unloved, unwanted, not accepted or appreciated, feeling sick or in pain, afraid of financial loss, or whatever – the ego is going to fight back. Even if we’re feeling a sense of depression or despair, the ego will try to retaliate and attack. We’ll find ourselves critical and condemning. We’ll compare ourselves to others, and remember that to the ego “different” and “separate” are the same. Comparison is the thin edge of the wedge that the ego uses to insinuate itself into our thinking and lead us to attack our brother with the machete of judgment, anger, and hatred. We’ll think thoughts like these: “Well, would you just look at what she’s wearing,” or “I’m better than her. I know about computers,” or “I’m a better parent. At least my kids don’t yell and scream in public.” It’s always: “I’m a better this or that. I’m superior.” Or we can feel righteously superior because we suffer more. Either way, we’re superior. That’s the ego’s line, its theme song. It is grandiosity and it keeps us away from knowing the truth of who we are.

Remember always that you cannot be anywhere except in the Mind of God.

Yet, in the midst of all this, we need to remember that the ego has no reality. It’s only our belief in it that makes it seem real to us. But Jesus is meeting us where we think we are. He continues: “The ego is immobilized in the presence of God’s grandeur, because His grandeur establishes your freedom. Even the faintest hint of your reality literally drives the ego from your mind, because you will give up all investment in it. Grandeur is totally without illusions, and because it is real it is compellingly convincing. Yet the conviction of reality will not remain with you unless you do not allow the ego to attack it. The ego will make every effort to recover and mobilize its energies against your release. It will tell you that you are insane, and argue that grandeur cannot be a real part of you because of the littleness in which it believes” (T-9.VIII.4:1-6).

We’ve all experienced this. The ego attacks our conviction of our reality by trying to convince us that we are arrogant to believe that we are the Son of God, always and forever loved by God. It whispers to us: “Just look at what you’ve done. You’ve separated from God. You’ve destroyed the Oneness of Heaven just so you could have your separate, individual existence. After that, how could God love you?” And the ego will use the Course. Oh yes, don’t doubt that for a moment. The ego will take the Course words and terminology and what we’ve learned and use them against us to make us feel guilty. Because the ego’s intent is to keep us away from God, it’s going to mount every offensive it can to make that happen. It will try to undermine with stories from our past. Maybe you grew up in a dysfunctional family. Maybe you were abused. Maybe you’ve had multiple marriages. Rev. Paul is my fourth husband. The ego likes to use that against me. How could I ever think I could be a Teacher of God? Look at all the mistakes I’ve made! How can I accept that God loves me? But I can. We all can because it’s the Truth. We are His beloved Son, forever at One with Him.

Jesus says: “Yet your grandeur is not delusional because you did not make it. You made grandiosity and are afraid of it because it is a form of attack, but your grandeur is of God, Who created it out of His Love” (T-9.VIII.4:7-8). So yes, we are eligible for the grandeur of God because God created us like Himself. “From your grandeur you can only bless, because your grandeur is your abundance. By blessing you hold it in your mind, protecting it from illusions and keeping yourself in the Mind of God” (T-9.VIII.5:1-2). Yes, I am loved by God. This is who I am. I was created in Love. I am in the Mind of God, and I can allow myself to bless others and see the truth in them. In fact, I bless others by seeing Truth in them. I can choose to overlook their littleness and their grandiosity. I can choose to see them as the equal Sons of God that they are, loved by God as I am.

“Remember always that you cannot be anywhere except in the Mind of God. When you forget this, you will despair and you will attack” (T-9.VIII.5:3-4). Bingo! Bazinga! That’s exactly what we do! We forget; then we attack. We may be Course students, but we still do this. Once we forget the truth about ourselves, we become frightened, we despair, we attack. We project our guilt and self-hatred onto others. We criticize and find fault. These are the little ways we express our separation from each other and from God. They represent the thought of self-hate, which is our guilt over what we believe we did when we destroyed Heaven.

Reference: Text, Chapter 9, VIII. Grandeur vs. Grandiosity

An excerpt from our book, Change Your Mind! Talks on Living A Course in Miracles


What Happens When We Ask Holy Spirit to See Things Differently?

Defensiveness and attack start with the premise that we stole something from God, and we need to defend our “stolen property” and attack in order to keep it. What we’ve “stolen” from God is our existence as separate beings. As a result of our theft, we feel guilty. This guilt is so painful that we repress it, push it down, and keep it out of mind. But what happens when we repress? We project it outwards as anger and attack onto people, places, things, and yes, even football teams, in order to get rid of the pain. But this doesn’t work, and it doesn’t give us peace.

An excerpt from our book, Change Your Mind! Talks on Living A Course in Miracles

Do you feel defensive or defenseless? These kinds of situations come up all the time. Too often, we lose our peace when they arise. We believe we need to defend and attack. The ego wants us to blame other people for stealing our peace. We feel that they, these people or situations, took something from us. But what’s really going on is that we gave away our peace. We’re projecting the unhealed guilt in our minds onto people and situations that seem to be outside of us. We blame and complain. The ego tells us that projection will make us happy and safe. But that’s a lie.

But what happens when we ask Holy Spirit to help us see things differently? Then, no matter if I’m run off the road, if the store is out of potato chips, or if I’m late to the party, I know I’m OK. I’m safe. I know that everything is perfect because in reality, I am safe at Home with God and only dreaming of exile. I know that I’m innocent and that the people around me are innocent, too. That’s the Truth that Holy Spirit will always remind us of. That’s what the Course calls Vision. If we are looking through the eyes of the ego, we’re not really seeing. All we perceive are the projections of our own inner guilt. We “see” that this or that person is guilty of harming us and stole our peace and well-being and perhaps even our potato chips. But through the Holy Spirit’s eyes, we see the truth and loveliness of each person. We are innocent, and so are they. So – and this is key – there is nothing to defend because nothing can take away our peace. Nothing.

Does that surprise you? We can lay down our weapons of attack – our projectiles of guilt and anger – because in reality we’re the ones who give the other person, the organization, or the job, or whatever seems to be troubling us, the power to hurt us. But the truth is that nothing outside of us can hurt us because there is nothing outside of us. As Workbook Lesson 284 tells us: “I can elect to change all thoughts that hurt.” We put those thoughts there; we can change them. But instead, we choose to blame someone or something outside us for causing the hurt. Listen to what Lesson 71 says: “The ego’s plan for salvation centers around holding grievances. It maintains that, if someone else spoke or acted differently, if some external circumstance or event were changed, you would be saved [happy, at peace]. Thus the source of salvation is constantly perceived as outside yourself” (W-pI.71.2:1-3). If my ex hadn’t said those things, if he hadn’t been drinking, if he hadn’t done this or that, then I’d be happy. If he hadn’t cheated on me, we’d still be married and I’d be happy. If my boss hadn’t fired me, I’d be happy and saved. I’d be happy if I didn’t have the problems I have right now.

Do you see how it works? We’re projecting responsibility for our own peace and happiness onto people, places, and things outside ourselves. It’s not our fault. It’s his fault, or her fault. Or it’s the weather, the germs, the economy. It’s racism or sexism or ageism. It’s genetics or astrology or karma. It doesn’t matter what we blame, attack, and defend against as long as it’s something outside us. But we can see things differently. We can choose again. Holy Spirit can help us to do so. We can stop defending and attacking.

I can elect to change all thoughts that hurt.

We need to go back to content. That means looking within, going back into our minds with Holy Spirit, joining with Him and asking His guidance. We can say, “Holy Spirit, give me your perspective on this and show me what to do.” He leads us to forgiveness. But it’s really easy to confuse form with content. We can join with an employee in our mind and still fire him if he stole from our company. We can honor our child as a Son of God and still ground him for breaking curfew. Although we see no separation from our brother (content), there still may be actions we need to take (form). But when we join with Holy Spirit, we can do what needs to be done with peace and love, not with anger.

But sometimes as Course students we confuse form and content. We think, “I’m not supposed to defend or attack. I’m supposed to be defenseless. I’m supposed to forgive.” So when someone does something harmful to us in form, we slough it off. We let it keep on happening, but inside we feel resentful. We repress that resentment because we think it is “unspiritual” to confront someone or get into an argument, especially if the other person is also a Course student. So we pretend not to notice. We pretend to be all-forgiving when our spouse brings the car home with an empty gas tank again. We smile when we should really speak up or do something, and we deny ourselves and our brother a learning opportunity.

But it is OK to do things in form. It’s OK to speak up or take action, even if doing so triggers a disagreement (which the Holy Spirit can use as a learning opportunity). Maybe we’re secretly afraid of that learning opportunity. So we listen to the ego tell us to pretend and be “spiritual.” That’s one way the ego can twist our learning the Course. Remember, the ego reads the Course with us. It knows this book better than we do. The ego can use the Course for its own purposes. It can jump right in and say, “You didn’t do your Workbook lesson today. Shame on you! You didn’t do the practice every hour; shame on you. You didn’t forgive your mother; shame on you. You didn’t make nice and continue to let your sister walk all over you. You’re still sick with chronic arthritis. Shame, shame, shame! You’re a bad, bad Course student. You might as well quit.”

Yes, the ego can use the Course. It can use difficult situations in our lives to keep us stuck in the wrong mind. The ego will use anything and everything. So it can certainly use this challenging idea in Lesson 135: “If I defend myself I am attacked.” The ego can tell you that you shouldn’t defend yourself. Then it shifts and tells you that you should attack someone. You defend and you’re the victim. You attack and you’re the hero. The hero of the dream, right? The ego loves this because confusing form and content keeps us separate from our brother, whether we’re defending or attacking. In other words, the ego gets us coming and going. But Jesus is telling us to join with him and our brother on the level of mind. Then we can seek guidance from the Holy Spirit about what to do in form.


Inaugurate Love Instead of Fear

Today we will inaugurate a new president. Many in the ACIM community (and others) disagree with what will take place today. Yet here we are. What do we do? There have been many discussions I have had with students whether it be in one of our groups, classes or one-on-one. Many are upset, angry and fearful of what is to come of this incoming administration. I will admit that I, too, do not agree with our new president. There are times I have felt judgment, frustration and anger, however, I return to what Jesus speaks of in A Course in Miracles and that touches my mind with  the light of peace. For me, A Course in Miracles is my dedicated spiritual path and so I continue to embrace its principles and put it into practice in my life.

In our “Walk in Gratitude” class last night some of these thoughts came forth as a student questioned the class on the discomfort she felt about today’s events. I thought to hold a meditation session today, but guidance came instead to write what appeared in my mind and this I share with you now. I trust that you can come together in your mind at the appointed time in the circle of healing and ask for peace. Yes, pray for an open heart of love and God’s peace.

As I spoke to the class last night, let us ask ourselves “What am I FOR?” not, what am I against?” Are you FOR Peace or not? Do you want conflict and judgment to continue to reign in your mind? For in that will determine the outcome you seek. If you are strongly against hatred and that is your promotion then are you not for hatred yourself? Think about that. If you set the goal for peace, you will always succeed. This reminds me of child development and “training” our kids. We tell what “to do” rather than “what NOT to do.” So instead of “Do not run in the house,” you say, “Please walk in the house.” You see, the mind skips over the word “NOT” for some odd reason and hears instead, “…run in the house,” and so kids do! So be what you are FOR. Be for peace.

Here is a 5-minute excerpt from my sharing in our “Walk in Gratitude” class last night on just this idea.  LINK

Donald and his administration are our brothers whether we want to accept them or not. We do not have to agree with their political position and we can still personally stand for human and equal rights, social justice and more, yet on the level of spirit, he and they are ONE with us. Stop for a moment on this. ONE WITH YOU….No one is left outside of Heaven. We go together. Let’s remember, “Whose voice will we listen to as we do this?” Will it be the ego’s voice of fear and hatred? Or, the Voice of the Holy Spirit Who only speaks of Love? Do I want to fight myself for tha tis what I am doing when I project it outward. Who is really judging when the finger is pointed outward at someone else we claim is judgmental?! Oh my! It’s us! It’s me!

Is this easy? No, it doesn’t seem easy when we are so headstrong in our beliefs. We are asked to be open to seeing it differently. Is it any accident that today’s lesson is Lesson 20 – I am determined to see, and tomorrow’s lesson is Lesson 21 – I am determined to see differently?

No, it is not. Crack open the door in your mind so the Holy Spirit’s kindly Light can shine through. The Holy Spirit would have us appreciate our brother and thank him for what he is teaching us. What has this experience since the election taught you? Be with that thought. What has come up for you? Are you grateful for what has stirred up in your mind and risen to the top? Did you know your mind was so filled with alligators in the swamp of the ego? Holy Spirit is helping us drain the swamp of our mind.

You see, we want the judgments to arise so they may be released. Be thankful this has occurred. Don’t fight what you feel. Be in a sense of wonder. I wonder what would happen if I let this judgment and grievance go? Jesus basically asks us the same in the Rules for Decision in Chapter 30. Take the time to re-read those as they are truly helpful. Then, embrace letting it go with the Holy Spirit. Embrace it all.

I admit to you I still have thoughts that come up as you heard in the excerpt from our class. I am grateful each time they come up because I can arrest the thought (most times) and invite Christ vision to see purely. Will I continue to see Trump purely? Honestly, probably not. But I have a Teacher who will help me in this endeavor. I trust the Holy Spirit above all. I don’t have to trust anyone else but Him. He will guide me to what is next for me. Everything is a lesson in love if I am willing to accept it. Every situation and experience can teach me appreciation and gratitude if I allow it. The question is, “Will I?” and now will you?


Here are some thoughts from ACIM and a guided meditation to carry you through the day.

“Love holds no grievances” – (From Review Lesson 84 of Lesson 68)

Love holds no grievances.

Grievances are completely alien to love. Grievances attack love and keep its light obscure. If I hold grievances I am attacking love, and therefore attacking my Self. My Self thus becomes alien to me. I am determined not to attack my Self today, so that I can remember Who I am.

These specific forms for applying this idea would be helpful:

This is no justification for denying my Self.

I will not use this to attack love.

Let this not tempt me to attack myself.


“Let miracles replace all grievances.” (From Review Lesson 89 of Lesson 78)

Let miracles replace all grievances.

By this idea do I unite my will with the Holy Spirit’s, and perceive them as one. By this idea do I accept my release from hell. By this idea do I express my willingness to have all my illusions be replaced with truth, according to God’s plan for my salvation. I would make no exceptions and no substitutes. I want all of Heaven and only Heaven, as God wills me to have.

Useful specific forms for applying this idea would be:

I would not hold this grievance apart from my salvation.

Let our grievances be replaced by miracles, [name].

Beyond this is the miracle by which all my grievances are replaced.


Here is a meditation I recorded on Lesson 78. Use it today as well as all I have shared. Invoke the Holy Spirit and allow Him to give you Christ Vision to see this day, this president and yourself with Love. LINK LINK NOW FIXED

Love, Light and Peace My Friends.

Rev. Deb

Healing Lightning & Thunder in the Mind

This blog post is a sharing in response to a homework assignment from the six week class, The Atmosphere of God, facilitated by Lisa Atkins, Ministerial Student.

Day 1:

Good morning, Amigos!

Somewhere in the Course Jesus comments that we do not know, but there is a Teacher with us Who does. I really enjoy it when I personally experience this truth for myself. This morning, I scanned through the list of lesson choices on our homework sheet and asked Jesus which lesson He wanted me to look at today. I slowly scanned through the list repeatedly, waiting for guidance to come through. Sure enough, my hand started to gently shake when I looked at a particular lesson. It was Lesson 170: Their is no cruelty in God and none in me.

As I read through the lesson, it became apparent that He was speaking very directly to me about something going on in my life right now! A thought, a belief, a god that I have been using to imprison myself, my mind, for many years. He was challenging me to finish letting the thought go – this is not the first time this has come up. This one scared me a little because I didn’t want to believe He was asking me to look at this particular one. I didn’t want to look at the belief and consider that it might be a mistaken belief. I have been afraid to let it go because it was based upon the strongly rooted belief that someone else must behave in a certain way for me to feel safe and happy. This is my assignment for today. To be willing to consider that there might be a better way. In the meantime, right now, I feel grateful for the experience of being reminded that there is a Teacher with me Who knows exactly what I need to work on and He will show me, if I take the time to listen. I am not alone.

Day 2:

Good morning fellow freedom fighters!

When I attack my mind, the resulting experience reminds me of the light that flashes and the thunder that slowly rumbles in a few minutes later on a dark and stormy night. In the reading that was selected for me this morning by the Holy Spirit, I was reminded that this is not the way the atmosphere of God’s mind works.

In T-6.III The Relinquishment of Attack, I was reminded that everything I learned from my ego body is not true. I am love but have forgotten that fact and need help from the Holy Spirit remembering it. As I mentioned yesterday, one of the reasons that made me feel afraid to look at one of my mistaken beliefs was because it gave me a false sense of security. I grew up feeling insecure and after all these years, I am still trying to make myself feel safe in subtle, unconscious ways.

The particular forms of attack upon my mind that the Holy Spirit has me looking at right now are the ones involving my 19 yr. old daughter, Autumn. When I see her behave in ways that I think are not appropriate, I think that I am failing as a parent to teach her how to grow up to be a mature, responsible adult. And so, in a flash, I come up with a plan to correct the behavior and I patiently wait and confront her later as gently as I can. The thunder always rumbles in later in the form of repressed anger and resentment on her part, and mine as well.

In this reading, Jesus shares that if I want to learn how to truly start feeling safe, I need to do a couple things. First, is to give up this form of attack. He states, “Safety is the complete relinquishment of attack. No compromise is possible in this. Teach attack in ANY form and you (Paul) have learned it, and it will hurt YOU (Paul)…your salvation lies in teaching the exact opposite of everything your ego believes. This is how you will learn the truth that will set you free.” Second, “The only safety lies in extending the Holy Spirit, because as you (Paul) see His gentleness in others your own mind perceives itself as totally harmless.”

So, with all that said, here’s my practical application for today. My ONE goal today is to have the little willingness to practice something that would be new for me. Over the past two days, I was reminded through personal experience that I can ask the Holy Spirit for help with something (in this case, selecting which readings to review) and if I wait, listen and be open for a response that will come through my body in some form, guidance will come. Therefore, it is my goal to practice this at least once today when observing my daughter – to observe, listen and be open for a response from Holy Spirit. To give Him a moment to show me something He would have me see or become aware of about her. It will be interesting to see what comes through.

Hey! Guess what? Something already came through – Autumn’s Grounded!! LOL! Just kidding.

Have a great Independence Day Celebration everyone!

Rev. Paul

Thoughts on Lesson 181

I trust my brothers, who are one with me.

The mind of the ego will always look for attack from others so we stay in defense mode. I found this myself recently with a work client. When I received the message that there needed to be a phone meeting to discuss an issue, my mind did a Hollywood flashback to all the times someone “needed to meet with me to tell me something” and every time the outcome was negative. I did stress for a little while about it, yet I realized I need not do so. My imagination can run wild and it was starting to do so! Yet, Who can I trust but the Holy Spirit.

So before the meeting, I choose to sit in meditation here in my home office. A mantra came to mind, not necessarily an ACIM lesson, but the principles of ACIM were ingrained in the mantra thought. “Peace be to me. I am open. My heart is open and my mind is open.” I repeated that several times and purposefully sent love to the client. I saw us as one, working towards the same goal.

In the meeting, I reminded myself not to defend or to attack, but to simply listen to what was shared. I asked questions and received clarifications. Afterwards, I felt relieved. I succeeded. I did not allow the ego to mistrust my brothers. I remembered to step back and allow Holy Spirit to prevail. We are One and we are all here for the same purpose, to remember Who we are.

Blessings my friends,


Thoughts on Lesson 170

There is no cruelty in God and none in me.

We attack because we are in terror within our mind and we believe our terror within will be relieved without. I know there were times in my live, my hidden thoughts and desires that someone or something would come to harm. We have to admit these thoughts in our mind. If we pretend we have never had these thoughts, when all along we have, then we are not going to achieve the healing we desire. It is always in our honesty where we prevail. We can choose again and collapse time. We do not need to excavate all of our guilt; we just work with what comes to mind. Holy Spirit will do the rest. Peace comes to an open mind.

Father, we are like You. No cruelty abides in us, for there is none in You. Your peace is ours. And we bless the world with what we have received from You alone. We choose again, and make our choice for all our brothers, knowing they are one with us. We bring them Your salvation as we have received it now. And we give thanks for them who render us complete. In them we see Your glory, and in them we find our peace.  Holy are we because Your Holiness has set us free. And we give thanks.  Amen.


Thoughts on Week 23, Ch. 13, IX. The Cloud of Guilt 

Guilt is what underlines it all. I have guilty (we as the Sonship) for our seeming attack on God. Yet it plays out in everyday life. Blame someone else, something else, push the guilt outside of me in whatever way I can so I cannot see it. I must condemn as that is the law of the ego.

The release from guilt is my freedom and the disappearance of the ego. As guilt is released so is fear. I no longer have to serve the ego’s whims. I will see that this world is nothing and will never provide the treasure I seek. The treasure I seek is God’s treasure, in fact, I am God’s treasure but by always seeking outside of me I will never witness to the fact that I am the very thing being sought!

When I insist on guilt in my brother, it is my own guilt. Thus we both are imprisoned. Withdrawing the guilt allows us the freedom to accept the treasure within. In truth, we are all guiltless. Yes, unfortunate situations happen in the world and for that I still need to do what I need to do here. But in God’s world we are both guiltless. I can rise above this world to see as such.

“Do not be afraid to look within. The ego tells you all is black with guilt within you, and bids you not to look.”

I trust in the strength of God to look within and dispel the guilt I placed there to keep me from God’s Love. God does not see the obstacle, neither should I. I am innocent as we all are.

Thoughts on Lesson 153

In my defenselessness my safety lies.

Defend, attack. Attack, defend. It seems to make the world go round, right?

In this lesson, I learn that I have no need for either in my consciousness. I liberate myself from this game. The practice I embrace today repairs what I believed was torn in my mind. My mind is mended with each minute I recall His Love for me.

For me, the simple statement in turning my ear to Him, “I am here,” is given and received. I chant this as to sustain myself in the present moment and I am reassured that He is present in the same instant. No need to feel powerless when I am steadfast in Him.

Thoughts on Week 21, Text, Chapter 13, Introduction

I only attack because of the guilt that is buried deep within. I don’t want to admit the guilt that I indeed wanted specialness from God. When I don’t receive it I behave as a spoiled child. I have everything through Him, so why would I ask for more?

This guilt kept me from accepting myself as God knows me to be. The guilt covers what is true. I just don’t want to believe it. I don’t want to believe something that I have been searching for. How insane is that!

I’m attached to this world ever so slightly without realizing it. Even with the sense of peace, contentment and confidence I seem to have, I can still be swayed when faced with an unexpected situations with tales by the ego telling me God is a cruel Father.

It is not true. The ego’s exaggerations are used to sidetrack me and round and round in circles I go! I have done nothing wrong when I think this way. It is but a mere mistake. This mistake was completely and instantly corrected by God. Whew!

Thoughts on Week 20, Text, Ch. 12, V. The Sane Curriculum

“Only love is strong because it is undivided. The strong do not attack because they see no need to do so.”

I only attack because I feel weak. It makes sense, doesn’t it? If I am confident in who I am and what I am about, why would I need to attack or defend my position or myself? I wouldn’t. When I am vigilant and simply notice what is occurring around me or what is being said, I can take it within to the Holy Spirit.

It bears repeating that I only attack myself. It is useless and gets me nowhere. Holy Spirit is my strength. While my mind is split between heaven and hell, I cannot know of God’s perfect love for me. I have taught myself to remain split instead of learning from my Teacher who leads me to perfect love.

“Do not attempt to teach yourself what you do not understand…”

If I teach myself, it is the ego who is teaching me. And the only curriculum is “Seek and do not find.” If I clamor for the drama and go after the drama, then I will always be needing constant reinforcement from others. I am trusting the ego instead of my Friend. Trusting the Holy Spirit will help me to see clearly what is in my best interests, and it may not be what I would think they are. Holy Spirit sees the big picture; I do not.

I have to relinquish my teacher, the ego. Jesus says, “Resign now as your own teacher.” We think this will make us depressed and lost, instead it will strengthen us and we will no longer need our defenses we always slip back into when a challenging or upsetting situation comes along. We will stand in strength with our Guide, Comforter and Friend.

Look Calmly

There are always those people or situations in our lives that seem to trigger a chaotic response. You know of which I speak, right? That one person or that one memory that sets you off the deep end and into panic, anger and upset. It’s as if you are driving 0-100 in a millisecond. You know you don’t want to be quick to attack or defend, but you do, then you regret it and feel guilty.

I, too, know of this because I have experienced it in my life. The Course is here with us as a tool to assist us to use its principles in every aspect of our lives. Recently I had an experience with a family member where it could have been as I described earlier, however, I am noticing more and more how easily I can slip into the Spirit’s glove instead of the ego’s web.

What I noticed is I set an intention before the conversation occurred. I wanted to give the conversation to the Holy Spirit, no matter how much my ego protested. It was a conscious decision. I was aware at every moment consciously what decision I was going to make, i.e. what I would say or what I would do. It was as if the conversation was happening in slow motion and perhaps it was because I would frequently stop and gather myself, closing my eyes for a moment to tune into my experience. Was I present? Or, was I being disturbed by the past? This person was dredging up the past, incident after incident, unaware of how it has affected their self-esteem and self-confidence. There were stuck in the past, but I need not be.

I needn’t accept the platter of guilt being handed to me. I can politely pass on the offering. Just because it is presented to me, I do not have to accept it. There may have been some actions I need to take responsibility or admit a mistake, however, I do not need to continue to admit it every time it is brought to me on the platter. When someone is upset, they need to simply be heard. I found by withdrawing any defense on my part helped the situation along until it came to a calm conclusion.

If I am grounded in my truth, do I need to defend? No. It was merely a means for this person who feels so out of control to try to control the situation. I care about this person and I love this person. Yet, I do not have to accept the guilt in the form of verbal or emotional abuse. Jesus does not ask us to suffer. We can be aware, make amends if needed, and do what we need to do. Mostly we are to respond to calls for love with love. That does not mean to attack back.

We do not have to live our lives in a whirlwind of chaos, rapidly traveling from one self-induced crisis to another, nor do we have to make our lives a soap opera or drama. I’ve been there. I know. I don’t desire it anymore. I desire peace. While in this recent situation, I simply looked calmly upon it, with no judgment (no matter what popped up from the ego) holding only the sacred space. It takes practice and patience and vigilance to be at this point. It is only as difficult as we believe it to be. We do not allow ourselves to be abused and we set healthy boundaries of course here in the world of form. Yet, we can do this with calmness in our heart. We can have peace in the midst of chaos. It is really up to us to choose. Be willing, be aware, be mindful, be vigilant and just, be.


Rev. Deb

Originally posted June 2015

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