Responsibility for Sight, Pt. 1

I am back to posting on our weekly readings. This month’s theme is “Roll the Stone Away” and yes, just the Easter theme we all need, don’t you think? I invite our students and team members to share their insights as well as our MiraclesOne community of ACIM students.

This week we start with Chapter 21, II. The Responsibility for Sight.

Before I get into actual sections of the reading let me share my preliminary thoughts. When I think of the idea of the month “Roll the Stone Away” it means that I have been blocked in some way from my true sight. With the boulder in place, I cannot see the beyond it’s stone wall. But as I work with Jesus in rolling the stone away I will see that I put the stone there in the first place!

1.            We have repeated how little is asked of you to learn this course. 2 It is the same small willingness you need to have your whole relationship transformed to joy; the little gift you offer to the Holy Spirit for which He gives you everything; the very little on which salvation rests; the tiny change of mind by which the crucifixion is changed to resurrection. 3 And being true, it is so simple that it cannot fail to be completely understood. 4 Rejected yes, but not ambiguous. 5 And if you choose against it now it will not be because it is obscure, but rather that this little cost seemed, in your judgment, to be too much to pay for peace.

Jesus tells me that he continuously tells me that it only takes that tiny bit of willingness to have the resurrection from the self-imposed nails. I have chosen against it in numerous ways. I have chosen crucifixion for myself and others. I have willed attack be my focus. Yet, I can give up everything in that instant that I realize I desire not its blood stained sight any longer. I have to ask myself “Do I want pain or joy?” It is really that simple. Somehow in my life there were many times I felt very deserving of the pain rather than joy. My own state of guilt, my own “not good enough” beliefs about myself, my self-attack, my defense, all of it drives the nails further in. The cross is hung and then my state of mind is taken down and put in a tomb.

I can awaken from this dream of darkness. That’s what ACIM helps us to do, to awaken from the dream that “I am mortal, fallible and full of sin, and know I am the perfect Son of God.” That is what forgiveness does. I feel blessed to have seen it work in my life with family and multiple marriages and low self-worth and zero confidence. It all comes to becoming responsible for every aspect that I see and experience. If you too want an escape, read our next paragraph that Jesus shares.

T-21.II.2.              This is the only thing that you need do for vision, happiness, release from pain and the complete escape from sin, all to be given you. 2 Say only this, but mean it with no reservations, for here the power of salvation lies:

 

3 I am responsible for what I see.

4 I choose the feelings I experience, and I decide upon the goal I would achieve.

5 And everything that seems to happen to me I ask for, and receive as I have asked.

 

6 Deceive yourself no longer that you are helpless in the face of what is done to you. 7 Acknowledge but that you have been mistaken, and all effects of your mistakes will disappear.

So do you want to see clearly? Want a happy life? Want to feel joy? Want to release the boulder from your mind? This prayer is what does it for you. Jesus has done all the heavy lifting for us. We just need to be willing to claim it. But the catch is we have to realize our own responsibility for it all. Everything we see and experience comes from our own mind. We choose our reactions to what is occurring. And if our intention deep down is for pain, then that is what we receive. If it is for joy, then that is what we receive. I remember this in relation to when my daughters were molested 14 years ago. I came upon this section yet again, but this time it upset me greatly. How could I be responsible for letting that happen to them. You’ve got to be kidding me Jesus! But when I did some self-reflection I had to see that on some level because of how I felt about myself, the deep seated hatred and abuse of myself, I made the conditions for the very pain and abuse to be done to me, and this was the third marriage at that time. I certainly didn’t consciously choose any of this. Let’s be clear about that. If the GPS system is set in the mind to pain then it will drive me to pain. With this prayer we can recalculate to a arrival point of joy.

Certainly at that time in my life it was gravely painful. Yet, I was able to be radically honest, forgive myself and see the light. I experienced the rock being removed from my path. By acceptance of how I saw myself at that time, in that moment, I was able to arise from the ashes of despair and into the peace of God. It did take time to work through. And this reading was the catalyst for it. It was through my little, tiny bit of willingness to trust Jesus and have faith that this prayer is the truth and would help me to heal that I experienced the resurrection. I can say that I look back on that era of my life with gratitude, certainly not what occurred to my girls, but to look back at a time where I changed my perception of myself and headed in a direction of self-love. I can love myself because God loved me first. And that is what I can continue to extend.

So if you have a difficult situation in your life at this moment, are you willing to be utterly and deeply responsible for it? Are you ready to lay down the blame? Are you ready to be dead honest in the mirror with yourself? Read to face the truth? Are you ready to forgive? Are you ready to have Jesus help you remove the blockages to your peace of mind? You can do this. You are not alone. You have your elder brother. You have me. You have all of us here at MiraclesOne. You are surrounded by mighty companions always and in all ways. Call on us, we are here.

Feel free to share your insights, make comments or ask a question about this week’s reading either on our Google Email Group or our Facebook Group.

Namaste,

Rev. Deb Phelps, Senior Minister

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